"The first few days I was going to commit sui (suicide). I'm used to doing just scripted (TV shows). You think you're interesting and then you realize you're not, so that was hard for me.

"And then to see myself fat was hard. It's cathartic." Kirstie Alley struggled while filming her new  reality TV show, "Kirstie Alley's Big Life," which documents her battle to lose weight.

One major theme in the series will be chronicling Kirstie's comedic and unique take on her battle with weight loss, which coincides with the launch of her new weight loss company. She's also producing a feature film, patenting multiple inventions, working hard to raise two normal Hollywood teenagers.

See more photos from "Kirstie Alley's Big Life" here!