Community star Donald Glover has shared a series of emotional thoughts on Instagram, alluding to what's going on in his life and his fears for what's to come in the future.
"I'm afraid of the future," he begins on a piece of Marriott hotel stationary. "I'm afraid my parents won't live long enough to see my kids. I'm afraid my show will fail." Glover is limiting his appearances on Community this season to work on FX series Atlanta and his upcoming Childish Gambino album, "Because the Internet."
He goes on to write, "I'm afraid my girl will get pregnant at not the exact time we want. I'm scared I'll never reach my potential. I'm afraid she's still in love with that dude.
"I didn't leave Community to rap. I don't wanna rap. I wanted to be on my own. I've been sick this year. I've seen a bunch of people die this year. This is the first time I've felt helpless. But I'm not on that. Kept looking for something to be in with. Follow someone's blueprint. But you have to be on your own.
"I feel like I'm letting everyone down. I'm afraid people hate who I really am. I'm afraid I hate who I really am. I'm scared people will find out what I masturbate to. I'm afraid I'm here for nothing. I feel that this will feel pretentious.
"I'm afraid this is all an accident. I'm scared I'll be Tyrese. I'm afraid Dan Harmon hates me. I'm scared I won't know anything ever again. I'm scare I never knew anything. I'm afraid I'll regret this. I'm afraid this doesn't matter at all.
"I'm scared I'll never grow out of bro rape. I'm afraid people think I hate my race. I'm afraid people think I hate women. I hate people can say anything. I hate caring what people think. I'm afraid there's someone better for you or me."
His final note ended with, "You're always allowed to be better. You're always allowed to grow up. If you want."
Theories over the reason for the notes range from song lyrics to a cry for help. Glover nor his representatives have commented on the notes.