hours went by as i just sat on my bathroom floor, head in my hands crying. like a little girl whos given up hope. i wouldnt stop crying. some where slient tears then i no longer remaind quite and i let it out in loud sobbs. i cried so hard and 4 so long until eventually my body just went numb and my eyes ran out of tears. there was blood on my...stained my shirts. there was a small pool of it on the floor as well. it was from my ears. coz they grew so long...so fast i took drastic messures and cut them off, thats why theres blood. it stoped bleeding a while ago. it doesnt hurt. i feel extremely numb. like im here but i dont feel it. its not easy...living with this curse. ive try and try to convince my self that in the end its worth it..but it just gets so hard. death, destruction and suffuring love my company. most of the time i can hold it bac...but not always, sometimes i just fall and breack. nd i always end up feeling like i do now. numb and detached. the sun will set soon. Mays still not bac. where the hell is she. shes always home before dark. always! its not safe after dark. i wonder how she will react when i tell her wat happened. i can barely believe it happened. and i most certainly dont understand the changes. why did my ears, teeth and nails grow so fast. in the blink of an eye. it doesnt make any scence. and y did it react with my anger. Where are answers when i need them. i dont think i can go back to school either. where going to have to leave again. my stomach growled in its hunger.
"oh hush up u" my voce was all harsh, didnt even sound like me. thats what i get for crying. im slowly getting some feeling back. as always, i recvor fast. i another semi helpful thing in my life as this monster. i got up off the floor slowly. careful not to step in the blood. i needed a shower. baddly. on my feet i stared bac and the ever growing stranger in my mirror. she had blood shot eyes and her face was all puffed out. showing more that ive been crying. my eyes looks darker tho...more detached. my ears well there a bloody mess. dried blood everywhere. my shirts are ruined. stained all the way throw. i opened my mouth to look at my teeth, i filed them down. i run my thumb acrross one of my fangs. its sliced my finger, but i applied pressue so there fine. i shighed at my apperance. i turned the tap on and clear cold water ran down in the basin. i washed my face and got most off the dry blood of my face neck and hands. the cold water was a wake up call. i didnt dry my face right away. i turned the water off and stared down at the basin starnds of my long black hair hung over my face. water drops trialed down my nose and driped down into the basin. i watched them. i kept wondering, what am i going to do? and am i ever gonna fit somewhere....will i ever be accepted?? will i always be this monster.? shaking my head i drowned thoses thoughts deep inside my head and splashed more water on my face. you dwel on that Allya ur as good as dead! keep it together. i dryed my face with one of the towels that sat on the rack. my stomach growled again. i walked out the door droping the towel on the floor on my way out.
the house was really quite. and the kitchen seemed dead. i reackon just a little over half an hour untill sun set. still no May. the fridge humed as i opened it. there wasnt much inside. another bad sign. looks like May hasnt been home all day. she was planing to go out and pick up supplies today. i felt unease. May's never been gone for so long before and it was staring to worry me. i opened all the cubboreds. paranoia is a scarey thing i was double checking to make sure nothing was out of place. nothing was. sighing i crabed a cranola bar from the pantry. i sta at the kitchen table and nibbled on the bar. maybe im just overly paranoid. i couldnt stop bouncing my leg up and down, and i must of looked at the clock every three seconds. May will walk through that door any minute now. just stop worrying. i finnished my granola bar and threw the wrapper in the bin. thats when the pacing started. i only ever pace when im worried about something. long strides all across the kitchen table. i placed my hand on my chin or my hip a few times. im really worried about May. what if something happened. something bad. and it would all be my fault. and why hasnt she called yet. crazi thoughts shot through my head as the minutes ticked by. and with each passing moment my pacing quickened and so did my worrying. then the phone ran. i jumped. could that be May? i went over to the phone but stoped. what if its not? wat if its the school? well better check then. i heasitnly picked up the phone and placed it to my ear.
there was breathing one the other end. sounded old. really old.
"hello?" i asked clamly. there was a pause. then.
"we know who you are.....Allya" i didnt reconise the voice, but they seem to kno who i am.
"who are u?" my tone was light but demanding.
"now now, all in good time. you wouldnt want anything happening to you friend here now would u?" my heart skiped a beat. no. they couldnt be talking about May. Could they? i shook my head slightly and all ligfhtness gone from my voice,
"wat do u want?"
"the park, the one by the rivier on Bedfreay Drive. be thereat the bridge in 2 hours. dont be late" the old mans voice was demanding
"wat makes u so sure i'll be there?"
"lets just say u wouldnt want anything to happen to...ur friend." there was muffing sounds, like the phone moving then
"help me........plz?" i droped the phone. i reconised that voice. and it was all my fault. all of it. it was May.
"now now dont tell me uve run off on us Allya....wat a shame" the voice called out from the phone that was on the floor. i picked it up.
"i want her unharmed, and i'll be there. if anything so much as a scratch is on her....i'll kill u my self"
"My u think i would do such a thing? i would never!" his voice was dripping with sacrcasim
"can the f***ing act old man!!" i was angry now. angry and scared form May. i would NOT let anything happen to her. i dont kno how they got her but i kno its coz of me. and im gonna make sure shes ok.
"2 hours" his voice was flat
"not a scratch" i said in a voice matching his flatness. he hung up. and the phone went dead and once again i was left alone in the silence. the cold, bitter silence....
and now...continues!!
after i hung up the phone i waited in the silence for a while. 3 thoughts were racing through my head. one was i neede a shower and out of these bloody clothes, 2 i need a weaopon thats gonning to kill anything im mad at and 3 was May. it was all my fault. i have to save her. shes all ive got left. i ran up the stairs to at a time. i showered quickly and mindlessly, my only thought was i had to save May. i tied my hair back in a high pony tale and just threw on whatever i could find that was clean. Black jeans with a Black tank top. i didnt really care about my appearnce, but my ears were starting to sting so i put band-aids over them. i grabbed a pair of boots, socks and a jacket and ran back down stairs. i put the boots on at the bottom of the steps. i know that he gave me two hours but, its better to be over prepared than sorry. i threw the jacket on and went into Mays room. She was the one who kept emergancy weapons. no matter where we are, im normally never allowed in her room. but this is to save her life. everything in there was either blue, green or brown. it was like walking into a rainforest. her bed loots like no one had slept in it 4 at least 2 days. did she come home last night? i really dont remember. the room was dark, but i could see fine in the dark. i fliped the light on anyway though. now where would May stash emergancy weapons? i walked over to her bedside table, there was a photo in a frame, one i havent seem before. it was one of a younger May and by the looks of it a younger version of my mum. they're about 16 in the photograh. how come i havent seem this before? i picked it up to look at it closely. i looked an awful lot like my mother from back then. she was so pretty. her hair was almost as black as mine. but hers was wavey and down to her belly botton, where as mine was stick straight and a little shorter. she was paler than me. like she raely went out in the sun. we had so many features the same...drops of water hit the frame. i was crying. i wiped the tears away but i lost my grip on the frame, it fell to the floor. the glass smashed.
"Sh*t!!" i cursed.
as i bent down to pick it up i noticed something, there was a envalop behind the frame. i shouldnt touch it, its Mays....but im sure she wont mind. courosity got the better of me and i grabbed the envolpe. it was unseald. it would be crazi not to open it. i looked inside. there was a series of letters, hand written inside, i pulled them out. they turned out to be pages from a diary. i read the first one, Valentines Day, Febuarry 14th 1991. the year before i was bore. the handwritting was Mays.
Shes a fool!!! a great big fool. i told her, a thousand times not to go see him, not to even look at me. but she didnt listen. no she didnt and now shes in love with him. i have to get out before someone descovers them. they went away today. left after sunset. to spend Valentines Day together. there going to get caught. there going to get caught then they will kill us all. i told her not to go, did she listen no, she just couldnt pass up a moonlight romantic dinner on the beach. she knows as well as i do that its forbiden. and its even worse considering who HE is!! but shes been so happy lately because of him. they both have. no ones noticed though it would be nice...to be in love i mean. oh the gaurds are coming i have to go. i read the next one..
Febuary 20th, 1991
that last round sure did hurt. i cant keep doing this, i love Lilith but this is to much...i know she loves him but i cant do this anymore!!March 4th, 1991
Shes spending way to much time with him!! and it has to stop, i cant keep covering 4 her. people are bigin to ask questions as to where they are. im going to tell her tonight that she has to stop seing himMarch 6th 1991
Well i talked to her..a lot of good it did me. were not talking now. she thinks im being selfish and that i dont understand that shes in love. shes so stuborn. hes probally using her. as much as im mad at her right now, i still love her and i dont want her hurtMarch 31st 1991
Lilith is still not speaking to me. shes avoiding me completely. and worse is the fact that im leaving soon. and i have to tell her. there letting me go, my time served here is done and im free. but i cant go. not without Lilith. not after all those things i said to her. what am i going to do April 13th 1991
Lilith is talking to me again, though i kind of wish she wasnt. she has a big secret. a secret that could get her, him and me all killed. i told her from the start that it was all a bad idea!! and she has to get rid of IT!! Lilith is pregnant....with the Princes child. and do you want to know what she said when i was set free. "oh thank heavens, now when the babys born...i'll run away and you can help me!! oh May dont you see its all going to be ok!!" i always have to take care of her. im the bigger one out of us to, im her protecter. and now i have to watch her go through this. shes going to die and im gonna have to let her while he--- i stoped reading for two reasons. 1 i was shocked. and 2 there was a bang on the front door that made me jump so high i droped the pages. i folded them up quickly. thets when i noticed the box under the bed. i pulled it out. its was bigger than a shoe box. about the size of a cake box...maybe bigger. i opened it. bingo!! exactly wat i came in here for!. i grabbed the 44 mimametor and the woodnen stake. another loud banf on the door. who the hell is over hear?? and why?? i froze and listened. i only heard my heart beat...and something else. something not human. my heart sank. i held my breath, shoved the stake in my jacket pocket and grabbed my gun. Villartarri. here. and now of all times!!!. but theres only one that i can smell and hear. they never travel alone. another bang on the door. why doesnt he just break it down?? hes after me isnt he? so y be polite and knock?. still holding the gun i creaped out of Mays room silently and went into the hallway. More banging...then he stoped. silence. i held my breath and listened. i heard someone cures under their breath then BANG!! something knocked the door down and again i jumped out of my mind. so much for there manners. my back up against the hallway wall, gun in hand i slowly crept forward. the Villartarri was in the house now, serching. i stoped, waited and listened. he was in the kitchen, more cursing, footsteps...now hes in the lounge. he stoped. hes listening for me. smart. but not smart enough. before he had time to see me first i jumped out of the hall way and surprised him. he was about 3 metres away, i fired the gun. but he was a Villaratrri, and a fast one. he dogeded the bullet. i curesed. and fired again. i was so close to hitting him that time. a centametre from his head. but once again he was fast. within a heart beat he was in front of me. he grabbed my gun and snapped it in his hands. i tryed to run but he grabed my wrists. no way was i going to let this #@#%$ catch me!! i kneed him and spun, twisting his arm. he didnt let go though he only grunted in pain.
" LET GO OF ME!!" i screaminged as i swung att him. this tim i made contact. he was holding my left wrist so i right pocketted in square in the jaw. this time he let go off me. the second he did i moved out of hes reach.
"owww!!! f*** that hurt you know!!!" hes voice sounded musical. and very sexy. no allya!! enime, he can kill you so wat if he has a sexy voice. i snaped bac in foucas a few steps away from him and for the first time, i finnally took in is looks. he was still rubbing his chinn and he was huched over but he was taller then me even hunched. he was very tall. he was pale, no surprise, all Villartarri are. he was lean build not very muscular, but u could tell he was strong with wat he had. his eyes were a deep blue. so deep that someone could drown in them. his hair was a dark brown. aurban colour..with a hit of red. boy he was gourgas. just looking at him i got all tingly inside. which was a very bad sign. and not just because he was a villartarri either.
"You just gonning to stand there with ur mouth open drooling? dont flatter your self sweatheart ur not the first to drool over me" he gave me a cocky smile. what a #@#%$. he may be gourgas but i hate him!!
"shut the hell up! least i didnt just get wacked in the face by a chick barely half your size now am i??" i gave him a smile simalar to his when seemed to get mad at my comment.
"are u always this much of a b*tch?? shut ur face dollface" then before i could blink he ramed me into the wall. and hard to. he was so much stronger then me. i was like a doll. i couldnt beat him. he pinned my arms against the wall, squezzing them hard. i could barely move them. i went to kick him but it was no use. he just squezzed my arms harder. i scremed in pain.
"Get the f*** off me!!!"
he leaned forward, his face inches from mine and he stared me down. we stayed like that for a moment. like we were daring the other to look away. then he chuckeled. and inspite myself, the sound gave me butterflies.
"your a firey little one*
"f*** off!!"
"Do you kno why im here??"
i thought about it, then spat in his face.
"dont f***ing toy with me arsehole! your like all the rest. here to kill me"
" That!!" his voice sounded angry. and agetated "was not very nice! and know thats not why im here. ive been watching you for a while now Allya can you guess why??" oh so help me despite of my self when he said my name i almost shivered. what a #@#%$!. cant he just kill me now? why does he have to bloody toy with me. hes attractive yes. i kind of like him yes. but i hate him at the same time. maybe i should just love to hate him. then the realization of what he said hit me.
"your the one whos been watching me" i said in a whisper. i stared him down "why?"
"i'll tell you later, if u survive but dont you want to save May??" my heart sank. May. i have to save her. i dug my nails into my plam and bit my lip. i let pain over whelm me. anger flow through me. i was all my fault. im not gonna let May die. i was angry with my self for putting her in danger. and angry at this #@#%$ right here. so angry, that i made it happen again. i felt my teeth growing, my eyes changing and my anger take over. i dug my nails deeper into my plams, drwing blood. as it ran down my arms i said through clenched teeth.
"Get. The. F***. Off of me!!. NOW!!" i think my sudden change startled him because he looked stund.
"what...the hell...??" the next think i kno is that ive pined him to the wall on the other side of the lounge room. i was so fast he never saw it comming. my inner instint was taking over me. my anger was taking over me. i was to fast for even him to react. then i was at his neck. teeth bared. oh no. i waited to long again. im going to bite him. im so hungry....he smells so good, just one little taste...i bit him. as soon as my teeth broke his skin i tasted his blood. it was even better then a humans blood. then realization hit me again. what was i doing!! i pulled bac off him and moved away from him just as fast as i was on him. i put my hand over my moth and rammed up against the wall.
"oh god!!" i wishpered. i still tased his blood. get control. every part of u is telling you to go and rip his throt out and drain him dry but fight it Allay....fight!! i was losing control again...no...i cant!! May need me!!. as soo as i thought of May i snaped out of it completely. breathing hard....i fell to the floor.
*im sorry...i lost control..." i said between breaths. i dont even kno this guys name...and he was going to kill me why the hell am i saying sorry for? i looked at him. his face was stund. and he was staring at me, with a face of pure terrorr mixed with amazedment. he barely noticed the blood running down his neck from where i bit him.
"howd....?" he shook his head, snapping out of his trance gaze. " You shouldnt be able to do that yet...not have that much control." he put his hand to his neck..."oww...you bit me to....and u stoped your self from killing me...amazing" i was still panting hard and i didnt full trust my self. he steped closer to me. but i put my hand up. even tho i was shaking.
"s-stay the hell away from me!!" i tried to scream that but it came out bearly a whisper. he sighed and shook his head.
"look im not here to kill you ok"
" who are you??"
he walked over to me and crouched beside me. a few feet away though. i dont trust my self either. he grabbed my chin and looked at my fangs. then he whistled.
"nice...and full ones to" i shook his hand off my chin
"Dont you dare touch me!!"
"Allya....cut the crap"
"You dont kno me so DONT you dare call me by my name!! What the hell do you want from me!!"
he just looked at me. dead in the eye.
"im here to help you actually"
"why?"
"i'll explain later. look do you want my help to save May or not?"
as soon as he said May i was up off the floor in 2 seconds flat
"Ohmygod!!! May!! i have to save her!!"
i turned and looked at him
" wait who ARE you?? and why are you going to help me??"
" The names Demetri, and i'll explain on the way lets go" he turned and headed for the door. i didn't trust him. not one bit. and the taste of his blood was still hot on my mind. but i had bigger things to worry about. like saving May. i followed him out the door. Save her, ask questions later.
To be continued...sorry 4 the spelling mistakes!!
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Kinda like in Dangerous Girls, their teeth could retract. ^^^And gosh! Poor Allya! Just the thought of the pain and anguish! Will May be alright? AHHH! 
so i desided to write another story that it relates to...and i threw in some sad studd with her mum and her best fried to. her mum goes crazy, smoking drinking partying even beating her. and her best friend dies. 
